* About my Fictosexuality *
SO... WHAT EXACTLY IS GOING ON HERE? IS DARLY YOUR FAVORITE CHARACTER? DO YOU SELFSHIP? IS THIS SERIOUS?
I SUPPOSE IT'S BOTH COMPLICATED AND VERY SIMPLE.
ON THE MOST BASIC OF LEVELS, DARLY BOXMAN IS MY BOYFRIEND. I TALK ABOUT HIM WITH MY FRIENDS AND OTHER PARTNERS, I GUSH ABOUT HIM ALL THE TIME, HE'S IN MY BRAIN ALL DAY, I CELEBRATE HOLIDAYS WITH HIM... THAT KINDA STUFF! HOWEVER, ONE VERY IMPORTANT DETAIL: HE'S ALSO A FICTIONAL CHARACTER.
IF YOU'RE SOMEONE WHO'S NEVER BEEN EXPOSED TO ANY DEDICATED 2DLOVE SPACES, THE ABOVE STATEMENT WAS PROBABLY A LITTLE ODD TO YOU. IN SHORT, THERE EXISTS AN IDENTITY COMMONLY KNOWN AS FICTOSEXUAL, DEFINED SIMPLY AS ONE WHO FINDS THEMSELVES SEXUALLY AND/OR ROMANTICALLY ATTRACTED TO FICTIONAL CHARACTERS. IT IS TRADITIONALLY DEFINED AS AN IDENTITY THAT FALLS ON THE ASEXUAL/AROMANTIC SPECTRUM, BUT I PERSONALLY DON'T IDENTIFY WITH EITHER OF THOSE LABELS AND HAVE TWO 3D PARTNERS AS WELL AS DARLY.
THERE ARE SEVERAL OTHER FICTOSEXUAL ADJACENT LABELS AND COMMUNITIES AS WELL. SOME OF THESE INCLUDE (BUT ARE NOT LIMITED TO) WAIFUISM, SELFSHIPPING, YUMESHIPPING AND EVEN ORIGINAL CHARACTER X CANON CHARACTER TO AN EXTENT. WHILE THESE SPACES OVERLAP, THERE'S ALSO PREDICTABLY A FEW EVIDENT DIFFERENCES BETWEEN EACH SUBCULTURE. I'LL TOUCH ON THIS A LITTLE MORE LATER. FOR NOW, I'D LIKE TO FOCUS ON FICTOSEXUALITY.
FIRSTLY, ONE OF THE FIRST THINGS ON OUTSIDERS' MINDS: IS THIS... "DAMAGING" AT ALL?
RUBS MY TEMPLES. FICTOSEXUALS ARE AWARE AND ACCEPTING OF THE FACT THAT THEIR SIGNIFICANT OTHERS ARE TWO-DIMENSIONAL AND, FOR LACK OF BETTER WORDS, 'NOT REAL'. IF A FICTOSEXUAL HOLDS DIFFERENT BELIEFS, I'M WILLING TO BET IT'S DUE TO SPIRITUALITY OF SOME KIND RATHER THAN THE ASSUMPTION OF DELUSION THAT OFTEN COMES WITH GAWKING AT COMMUNITIES LIKE THIS. ON A SIMILAR TANGENT: ATTRIBUTING FICTOSEXUALITY TO ONE'S LONELINESS, ONE'S MENTAL ILLNESS OR ANYTHING IN A SIMILAR VAIN IS ALSO INCORRECT. I WOULDN'T BE FICTOSEXUAL IF IT WAS DUE TO A LACK OF 3D AFFECTION. AS I MENTIONED PRIOR, AND MANY OTHER TIMES ON THIS SITE, I HAVE TWO 3D PARTNERS.
I DEBATED EVEN GOING OVER THIS, BUT I DON'T FEEL LIKE I CAN JUST LEAVE IT COMPLETELY UNSPOKEN. IT'S A BIT OF AN ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM.
BUT... OOOH, ISN'T THIS SO CRINGEY AND ODD? GET A REAL GIRL XD BRAH
...YEESH. I AM A FIRM BELIEVER OF "IF IT'S NOT HURTING ANYBODY, DO WHAT YOU WANT FOREVER." AND 2DLOVE IS EXACTLY THAT. IF SOMEONE IN A HAPPY COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE WHO "ISN'T REAL" UPSETS YOU BECAUSE IT'S ODD, OR NONTRADITIONAL, OR YOU HOLD BIASES BASED ON WHAT I WENT OVER EARLIER... I ADVISE YOU TO LOOK INWARD. DON'T KILL THE CRINGE, BUT THE PART OF YOU THAT CRINGES. HAPPINESS REIGNS OVER ALL.
NOW THAT ALLAT'S OUT OF THE WAY, I CAN GET INTO SOME OF THE REASONS WHY I PERSONALLY BELIEVE I AM FICTOSEXUAL.
FIRSTLY, I'M AN INTROJECT OF PINK CITY'S VERY OWN HOONIS BOOGIE. FOR CLARITY PURPOSES, I'LL REFER TO CANON, "SEPERATE-FROM-ME" HOONIS BOOGIE WITH HIS CANON PRONOUNS (HE/HIM) SINCE INTROJECTS AREN'T THEIR SOURCES BLA BLA BLA. ANYWAYS, HOONIS IS INHERENTLY FICTO-CODED. HIS INFATUATION WITH DARLY, A FICTIONAL CHARACTER IN *HIS* WORLD, HAS BEEN REFERRED TO AND DISCUSSED IN A ROMANTIC LIGHT SEVERAL TIMES BY THE CREATOR OF PINK CITY. AND, EVEN WITHOUT THOSE TIDBITS OF INFO, THE WAY HE ADDRESSES HIM (CLIP) IN CANON IS... ENOUGH, TO SAY THE LEAST. SINCE I FORMED FROM CANON HOONIS, IT'S NATURAL THAT I RETAINED A LOT OF HIS TRAITS, IDENTITY, EXPERIENCE, AND... IDENTITY!
THE RELATIONSHIP I REMEMBER HAVING WITH DARLY IN MY SOURCE IS EXACTLY WHAT SO MANY OTHER 2DLOVERS EXPRESS THEY FEEL FOR THEIR OWN SIGNIFICANT OTHERS. THIS DEEP, UNDENIABLE CONNECTION TO SOMEONE WHO, WHILE FICTIONAL, HAS MANAGED TO TOUCH THEM THROUGH TIME, THE UNIVERSE AND WHATEVER OTHER THINGS WORK TO SEPERATE ONE FROM ANOTHER. DISCOVERING 2DLOVE COMMUNITIES FELT LIKE HAVING MY EYES OPENED TO SOMETHING THAT'D BEEN RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME FOR MY ENTIRE EXISTANCE; A RELATIONSHIP I'D FOSTERED AND TURNED OVER IN MY HANDS FOR SO LONG REIGNITED INTO WHAT IT WAS ALWAYS MEANT TO BE. WHAT IT WAS BEFORE I WAS SUDDENLY... HERE.
ON A LESS EXPERIENCE-IMPACTED LEVEL, I SIMULTANEOUSLY BELIEVE THAT MY FICTOSEXUALITY IS LIKELY ALSO INFLUENCED BY MY INHERENT INHUMANITY. JEEZ, ALLITERATION. ANYWAYS, I MYSELF AM INHUMAN. THIS IDENTITY COMES ON A VARIETY OF DIFFERENT LEVELS, BUT I'D LIKE TO FOCUS PURELY ON THE MOST BASE OF THEM: I AM SIMPLY A BEING. NOT HUMAN, BUT UNFORTUNATELY RESIDING IN THE BODY OF ONE. SEEING OTHER SAPIENT, SENTIENT INHUMAN BEINGS LIKE DARLY PORTRAYED IN MEDIA IS... COMFORTING! THEY'RE LIKE ME! IT ALSO DOES NOT HELP THAT THE HUMAN FORM PERSONALLY DOESN'T EXIST IN MY ATTRACTION SPECTRUM.
QUICK CAVEAT, I KNOW EXACTLY HOW THIS CAN SOUND. I AM ATTRACTED TO INHUMANS, BUT I AM REFERRING SPECIFICALLY AND EXCLUSIVELY TO FULLY SAPIENT, CONSENTING, INTELLIGENT BEINGS. ANYONE WHO CONDONES ZOOPHILIC PRACTICE IS NOT WELCOME ANYWHERE NEAR ME. PACK YOUR BAGS AND GET OUT.
AND, OF COURSE, PHYSICAL ATTRACTIVENESS ISN'T SOMETHING I ALWAYS CONSIDER; NOT TO MENTION THE TWO GLARING EXCEPTIONS TO WHAT I JUST SAID ABOUT FINDING HUMANS UNATTRACTIVE (READ: MY BOYFRIEND AND QUEERPLATONIC PARTNER, BOTH ALSO STUCK WITH HUMAN FORMS. I CAN'T HELP BUT FIND THE BODIES THEY'VE BEEN GIVEN ATTRACTIVE AS WELL. :3c) BUT IT IS SOMETHING NOTABLE IN ANY RELATIONSHIP, TO AN EXTENT. AND I BELIEVE IT'S ONE OF THE GLARING REASONS FICTOSEXUALITY COMES SO NATURALLY TO ME. IT EASILY HARBORS A RELATABILITY I STRUGGLE TO FIND ELSEWHERE.
THERE'S ALSO A FEW OTHER FACTORS TO CONSIDER WHEN ATTRIBUTING MY SEXUALITY, THOUGH I BELIEVE THEY'RE PROBABLY MORE INSIGNIFICANT. MY HYPER-EMPATHY, THE TRAITS I EXHIBIT DUE TO BORDERLINE AND THE SHEER AMOUNT OF LOVE I HAVE TO GIVE ALL PROBABLY CONTRIBUTE TO MY FICTO IDENTITY. THERE'S PROBABLY OTHER THINGS I HAVEN'T EVEN CONSIDERED THAT HAVE IMPACTED IT AS WELL.
NOW THAT YOU KNOW MY COOL FUCKING BACKSTORY (CLIP), I CAN YAP A LITTLE ABOUT 2DLOVE ITSELF AND THE CULTURE SURROUNDING IT. LIKE I MENTIONED PRIOR, THERE'S A VAST AMOUNT OF SPACES ONLINE DEDICATED TO THE AT LEAST SOMEWHAT COMMITTED LOVE OF FICTIONAL CHARACTERS. MOST OF THEM EXIST ON VARYING LEVELS OF SERIOUSNESS, COLLECTIVELY AGREED UPON OR NOT. I PERSONALLY CONSIDER MYSELF A SUBSCRIBER TO WAIFUISM FIRST AND FOREMOST, SINCE THE COMMITMENT WAIFUISTS HAVE AND THE ZEAL THEY TREAT THEIR S/OS WITH ALIGNS THE MOST TO ME. I'VE ALSO RECENTLY BEEN APART OF THE LARGER YUMESHIP COMMUNITY ON TWITTER, AND I SEE VERY WHOLEHEARTED LOVE ON THERE AS WELL. FICTOSEXUAL ALSO TENDS TO CARRY A WEIGHTY IMPLICATION OF DEDICATION, GIVEN IT'S A LABEL. AND, THOUGH A LOT OF SELFSHIPPING SKEWS MORE CASUAL, THAT'S NOT TO SAY I HAVEN'T SEEN VERY COMMITTED RELATIONSHIPS IN THAT CROWD AS WELL. THIS IS KIND OF A HUGE MESSY PARAGRAPH OF NOTHING, SORRY. OOPS. TAKEAWAY IS THAT WAIFUISM TENDS TO BE THE MOST "SERIOUS". DESPITE ALL OF THIS, I THINK IT'S WONDERFUL TO SEE 2DLOVE SO COMMON ON THE WEB NOW (AT LEAST, IN COMPARISON TO ITS POPULARITY IN PREVIOUS YEARS).
ON A NEW AND LESS POSITIVE NOTE, THERE DO TEND TO BE QUITE A FEW THINGS THAT COME BETWEEN 2DLOVERS AND THEIR PARTNERS. MOST NOTABLY, THE LACK OF PHYSICALITY. THERE ARE MULTIPLE THINGS I DO TO COMBAT THE PHYSICAL BARRIER BETWEEN ME AND DARLY. I DEDICATE HOURS TO CREATING A VARIETY OF DIFFERENT KINDS OF ART (WRITING, DIGITAL DRAWINGS, ETC), I COLLECT AND CUSTOMIZE MERCHANDISE AND I LET DARLY LIVE IN MY HEAD RENT FREE THROUGH DAYDREAMS AND SIMILAR ADORATION. I LOOK AT ART OF HIM, I COMMISSION ART OF HIM. AND, PERSONALLY, THIS IS HOW I LOVE HIM. THIS IS HOW I ENSURE HE'S ADORED AND CHERISHED AND ABSOLUTELY CODDLED. OTHERS MAY HAVE SIMILAR METHODS, OTHERS NOT. JUST LIKE TRADITIONAL 3D RELATIONSHIPS, EXPRESSIONS OF LOVE AND LOVE LANGUAGE IN FICTOSEXUAL RELATIONSHIPS ARE OFTEN DICTATED BY THE PARTIES INVOLVED. EVERYONE'S DIFFERENT. :0
ANYWAYS... I THINK I'M DONE DRONING FOR NOW. I THINK IT'S WONDERFUL IF YOU, READER, TOOK ANYTHING NEW AWAY FROM THIS. IT'S KINDA SCATTERBRAINED, AS ARE MOST OF MY RAMBLES ON MY SITE, BUT I THINK IT'S BETTER THAN THE OLD PAGE! HEY, DID YOU KNOW I LOVE DARLY A LOT? A STUPID AMOUNT, EVEN?