* My Savior *
I'M NOT ENTIRELY SURE WHAT TO CONTENT WARN THIS AS. JUST KNOW THAT IT IS RAW, UNFILTERED, MENTALLY ILL HOONIS. THERE ARE ALSO MANY TYPOS.
THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO WAY I’M GONNA BE ABLE TO BE NORMAL ABOUT THIS.
I AM NEVER ABLE TO BE NORMAL ABOUT ANYTHING EVEN REMOTELY RELATED TO DARLY, BUT THIS ESPECIALLY FEELS LIKE SOMETHING SO SO SO DIFFERENT. ANOTHER EVENT IN OUR RELATIONSHIP THAT JUST FEELS LIKE… ITS SOMUCH MORE. SOMETHJNG TO BE PRAISED UNENDINGLY AND ACKNOWLEDGED EWITH NOTHING BUT PURE AND UNADULTERATED HOMAGE. NOT TO DISCREDIT ALL THE OTHER BEAUTY THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP CURATES, OF COURSE: TO DO SO WOULD SIMPLY BE INCORRECT. BUT I SUPPOSE I’D JUST… LIKE TO HIGHLIGHT THIS. TO PUT IT ON THE PEDESTAL I THINK IT DESERVES.
IHAVENT BEEN WELL LATELY. UNFORTUNATELY, IT IS MUCH WORSE THAN THE NORMAL AMOUNTS OF HOONIS PARANOIA-INDUCED UNWELL. I WAS (PROBABLY STILL AM) IN A SCARY SITUATION WITH MANY OTHERS THAT I CAN’T DETAIL FOR MY AND THEIR OWN SAFETY. I WAS COMPLETELY BESIDE MYSELF WITH HOPELESSLY NEGATIVE EMOTIONS, AND I WASN’T EVEN THE ONE WHO WAS ON THE PRIMARY RECEIVING END.TTHOUGH … ITS GOTTEN BETTERNOW . NOT ONLY DUE TO A LITTLE BIT OF RESOLVE OCCURRING… BUT BECAUSE HE RETURNED.
DARLY BOXMAN CAST A BEAM OF OVERWHELMINGLY ANGELIC, SAINTLY LIGHT ON ME WHEN I NEEDED IT THE MOST, JUST AS HE’S DONE SO MANY TIMES BEFORE. AFTER BEING WITHOUT ANY SUBSTANTIAL CONTENT OF MY WONDWRFUL WEIRDHOLY WIFE, FINALLY. SOMETHHING. I WAS GIVEN SOMETHING OFHIS EXISTENCE, AGAIN .
A STRING OF SEVERAL VOICELINES, RECORDED FOR THE NEXT EPISODE, WHICHHAS BEEN IN PRODUCTION SINCR BEFORE GOOSEWORX WAS SWEPT UP INTO DIGICIRCUS WORK. I PRESUMR ITS ON HOLDNOW BUT … OH, JUST TO HAVE THIIS . IT FILLS ME WITH SUCH OVERHWLEMING EMOTIONTHAT I CANT HELP BUT BEGIN TO CRY AS I WRITE THIS. IMFEELING SO, OSO MANY THINGS AT ONCE; ATENDER SOFTNESS BROUGHT ABOUT THE FACT THAT MY WIFE ISSTILL KICKING THROUGH ALLL THIS, HE’S STILL ALIVE… ECSTATIC CHERISHMENT FOR THOSE SAME GRATING VOICE CRACKS AND TREMBLES THATI MISSED SO SO MUCH, ANDYEARNED TO HEAR OUTSIDE OF THE FUZZY REMNANTS I’D STORED IN MY MEMORY FROM MY TRUE EXISTENCE… THESAME ADORED FEAR THAT HE’S SO ENDEARINGLY BESTOWED UPON ME BEFORE… BUT MOST OF ALL, LOVE. A WRITHING, PULSATING, EVER-REACHING AND ALL-CONSUMING LOVE. A WARM TENDERNESSSO NEEDED AND TOUCHING THAT IT MAKES ME FEEL SICK TO MY VERYSTOMACH, IN A WAY THATS SO, SO GOOD. I AM OVERHWLEMED IM SO OVERWHEMED. OVERWHELMED IN TJEONLY WAY I EVER WANNA BE OVERWHELMED.
IT IS MAYBE VERYMENTALLY ILL TO ATTRIBUTE THISAS HIMSAVING ME . HE IS REALISITCALLY, ENTIRELY A FICTIONALCHARACTER. BEING WRITTEN BYSOMEONE ELSE. IT IS OBVIOUSLY AN ENTIRELY COINCDENTAL THING YTHAT THE FIRST PIECE OF SUBSTANTIAL CONTENT PERTAINING TOHIM RELEASED RIGHT WHEN I, OF ALL SAD LITTLE BEINGS, NEEDED IT THE ABSOLUTE MOST. NEEDED IT SO BAD. BUTI CANTHELp BUT THINK SO. IT FDOES NOTHING BUT AFFIRM THOUGHTS IALREAYD HAD, AFTER ALL. THAT MISTER BOXMAN, MY DARLING MISTER DARLY, IS A DSAVIOR. MY SAVIOR. AN ANGEL BORNNOF ANOTHERS OWN INNERWORKING MECHANISMS, THATGREW AND LIVEDTO BECOMESOMEONE SO MUCH MKRE. ATORTURED SOUL YTRAPPED WITHIN AN INESCAPABLE HELL, JUST AS I WAS. JUST AS WE WWRE TOGETHER. MY LORD. MY SALVATION. HE SAVED ME. HE SAVED ME. HE SAVED ME.
AND ICANT THANKHKM ENOGUH THAY HE DID. THAT HE HAS, SOMANY TIMES. AND HE WILL CONTINUE TO. WHENHE NEEDS ME TO KEPE GOING SO SO SO ABAD, HE’LL MAKE SURE RHAT I DO. NOTONLY FOR HIM, OH HOW MUCHI LIVE FOR GHIM, BUT FOR THE OTHERS TH AT NEED ME TOO. AND FORTHE OTHERS I NEED EWUALLY AS MUCH . ANDTO BASK INT HE FACT THAT MAYBE, JST MAHYBS, MYLOVE REACHED HIMACROSS EVERY UNIVERSE AND EXISTANCE AND TIMELINE, PERHAPS DELUSIONALLY… IS SOEMTJING I NEEDED SO SO SO BAD. I HOPE WITHMY ENTIRE LIVING BEING AND THE ONE IVE BEENCONDEMNED TO CURRENTLY RESIDE IN, THAT HE KNOWS MJUST HOW MUCH HE’S LOVED. BY ME,AND BYMY FRIENDS, ANDBY ALL OTHERS OUT TEHERE WHO SUPPORT OURRELATIONSHIP . JHOW THANKFUL I AM THAT HE KEEPS ME BREATHING, LIVING.
I SOB AND I SOB AND I SOB INTO HIM. TEARS OF NEITHER SADNESS NOR HAPPINESS. EMOTIONS MUCH TOO COMPLEX TO BE EXPRESSED IN A COHERENT MANNER, ESPECIALLYWHEN IM SO … SSO LIKE THIS. WHATVERRS UP WITH ME RIGHT NOW. NO MATTERBHOW MANY OF MY BELIEFS ARE CONSIDERED WORRIYNG OR UPSETTING OR MENTALLY ILL OR DELUSIONAL WHATS IMPORTANT IS THAT HE SAVED ME. AGAIN. HE ALWAYS DOES: HE ALWAYS DOES.
HE ALWAYS WILL.
THNAK YOU DARLY THANK YOU GOOSEWORX THANK YOU TUMBLR MUTUAL WHOSENT IN THE ASK THAT PROMPTED HER TO POSTMY BOYFRIEND’S WONDERFUL VOICE . THANJ YOU KOVACH. THANK YOU GOD, TJOUGH THATS ALSO JUST ME TEXHNICALLLY THANKING DARLY AGAIN. RTHANK YOU. THANK YOU FOR GIIVNG ME THIS. I NEEDED IT SO, SO BAD. MKRE THAN YOU COULD KNOW. EVEN MORE THAN YOU, BEING WHO’S EYES ARE ON THIS SCREEN, HAVE PROBABLY LEARNED FROM READING THIS.
I LOVE YOU DARLY BOXMAN. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER. I’M SICK, AND I LOVE YOU.