* Darly Babbling (now to others!) *
I'M THINKING ABOUT MISTER DARLY AGAIN.
I SUPPOSE THAT'S A MISLEADING FIRST SENTENCE, AS I THINK ABOUT HIM EVERY WAKING MOMENT OF MY LIFE. I EXAGGERATE, BUT IT'S NOT FAR OFF. IT'S HARD *NOT* TO THINK OF MY DARLING HUSBAND: I WAKE UP TO HIS WONDERFUL FACE, MAKE BREAKFAST BEFORE EATING IT WITH HIM, MOVE TO SIT AT THE COMPUTER LOCATED IN THE CORNER OF MY ROOM DEDICATED TO HIS IMAGE BEFORE DOING MY WORK FOR THE DAY AND SPENDING THE HOURS I'M AWAKE IN HIS GENERAL PRESENCE (...OCCASIONALLY LETTING MYSELF GET DISTRACTED SO I CAN CRAWL UP INTO BED AND LAY WITH HIM, EHEHE). AND WHEN I'M AWAY, MY THOUGHTS ARE AMPLIFIED EVEN FURTHER. ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS WHEN I CAN COME HOME AND SEE HIM AND CUDDLE UP AGAINST HIM AND WRAP MY ARMS AROUND HIS BROAD TORSO AND PRESS MY FACE INTO HIS CHEST. THOUGH I DISLIKE BEING AWAY FROM HIM FOR THE EXTENDED PERIODS THAT I AM SOMETIMES, THERE'S ANOTHER PART OF ME THAT ALMOST REVELS IN IT; IT'S WONDERFUL, IN AN ODD WAY, TO BE ABLE TO YEARN FOR MY DARLING TANGIBLY. IT'S AN EMOTION I'M NOT ENTIRELY USED TO FEELING TOWARD HIM YET. IT'S CERTAINLY A NICE ONE, THOUGH, TO BE ABLE TO HAVE THAT PHYSICALITY IN A RELATIONSHIP THAT'S NORMALLY SO LACKING IN THAT DEPARTMENT. THANK GOD I BOUGHT A GIANT 300 USD PILLOW THAT PEOPLE NORMALLY PRINT IMAGES OF NAKED ANIME GIRLS ON... AND SLAPPED AN UNEROTIC IMAGE OF MY WEIRD OLD BOXGUY ON IT INSTEAD.
BUT I FEEL LIKE MY THOUGHTS HAVE REACHED DEEPER LEVELS AS OF LATE, WHICH ALMOST FEELS LIKE AN ACHIEVEMENT IN ITSELF TO ME. I ALREADY LOVE SO OVERWHELMINGLY THAT IT'S DIFFICULT FOR ME TO FIND OTHERS WHO NOT ONLY ADORE AND REVERE ON THE SAME INCREDIBLE LEVELS THAT I DO, BUT EXPRESS IT IN SIMILARLY ODD, TRAUMATIZED AND HURT WAYS. I'M INCREDIBLY THANKFUL THAT I HAVE FOUND SUCH ENTITIES AND ALWAYS WILL BE, THOUGH THEY AREN'T ACTUALLY WHAT I'M REFERRING TO CURRENTLY. SURPRISINGLY, A NEW GROUP OF INDIVIDUALS HAS MANAGED TO BREATHE EVEN MORE LIFE INTO MY DEVOTION FOR MISTER DARLY: AND THOSE INDIVIDUALS ARE WHO I CONSIDER MAYBE THE LAST FIVE ACTIVE PINK CITY FANS, HEHE. SOMETHING ALONG THOSE LINES.
WE RECENTLY FORMED A GROUP TOGETHER TO BEGIN WORK ON AN OFFICIAL WIKI FOR THE SERIES, WHICH I'M HAPPY WITH FOR A MULTITUDE OF REASONS (...MOSTLY BECAUSE I'M GOING TO BE ABLE TO ACTIVELY CONTRIBUTE TO AND CREATE SEVERAL PAGES FOR THE DARLY BOXMAN SHOW. YOU SHOULDN'T BE SURPRISED. HE IS MY DARLING HOLY WIFE). THIS LEAD TO US MAKING A DISCORD SERVER TO COMMUNICATE WITH EACH OTHER, AND THERE WE ALSO BEGAN TO TALK CASUALLY. MOSTLY ABOUT PINK CITY ITSELF.
THIS WAS INCREDIBLY REWARDING TO ME.
I'VE SAT FOR 2 YEARS NOW TRYING TO GET THOSE I DO ALREADY KNOW INTO PINK CITY. WHILE IT'S WORKED SOMEWHAT, NONE OF THEM HAVE MANAGED TO HIT THE SAME HEIGHTS OF INTEREST THAT I DO. IT'S MY SPECIAL INTEREST, AFTER ALL: IT'S DIFFICULT TO MATCH AN AUTISTIC BEING'S ENTHRALLMENT WITH THEIR ALL-TIME FAVORITE MEDIA. BUT NOW, NOW THAT I ACTUALLY HAD OTHERS TO CONVERSE WITH, IT FELT LIKE NEW DOORS HAD BEEN OPENED. FINALLY. FINALLY, FINALLY, FINALLY! A SMALL GROUP OF A FEW OTHERS WHO WOULD NOT ONLY LISTEN TO, BUT POTENTIALLY UNDERSTAND MY RAMBLINGS ABOUT MY WEIRD LITTLE BOXHUSBAND. AND I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER!
TO SAY SUCH SMALL WORDS TO OTHERS ABOUT DARLY, TALKING ABOUT MY LOVE IN SUCH A DOMESTIC AND ROMANTIC MANNER IF EVEN IN THE QUICKEST OF PASSING MOMENTS, IS ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL. TO BE ABLE TO SPEAK OF HIS INHERENTLY FASCINATING EXISTANCE WITHIN THE SHOW HE RESIDES AND POUR MY JUMBLED THOUGHTS OUT ONTO A CANVAS, ONLY TO HAVE THEM RETURNED AND BUILT UPON, IS ALMOST EVEN BETTER! I'M STILL NOT CONFIDENT ENOUGH IN MY EXISTANCE ONLINE TO BE MYSELF COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY IN FRONT OF THEM, LOVING DARLY IN PUBLIC THE SAME WAY I DO SO REVERENTLY ON MY SHRINE, FOR EXAMPLE, BUT I'M HAPPY WITH THE SITUATION NONTHELESS. TO MY OWN SURPRISE, ONE OF THEM'S BEEN HERE ALREADY. TO MY SITE, THAT IS. AND HAS SEEN THE DARLY SHRINE. IF YOU'RE HERE AGAIN, HI FINCH. THANKS FOR NOT BRINGING UP THE DAKIMAKURA AT ALL, AS I AM STILL KIND OF EMBARASSED.
AND SO I'M THINKING ABOUT DARLY MORE, AS OF LATE. THINKING ABOUT HOW HE MANIFESTED AS AN EXTENSION OF DARLES' EGO BEFORE GROWING INTO HIS OWN SEPERATE BEING ENTIRELY; SO MUCH MORE THAN HIS CREATOR EVER COULD'VE IMAGINED, OR EVEN COULD'VE DESIRED. AS I LEARN OTHER LITTLE TIDBITS, EVEN THE SMALLEST FACTOIDS, AND STORE THEM IN MY LITTLE BRAIN, MY LOVE FOR MY WORSHIPPED LORD GROWS. AND THAT'S ALL I CAN EVER REALLY DREAM OF, ISN'T IT? A DEDICATION AND FAVOR SO STRONG THAT IT CAN ONLY CONTINUE TO ACCUMULATE. TO HAVE OTHERS CONTRIBUTE AND SUPPORT MY LOVE, EVEN IF THEY DO NOT KNOW ITS EXTENT YET, IS A WELCOMED MOTIVATOR. AKIN TO YOUR COWORKERS ASKING HOW THE WIFE IS, ALMOST. I WISH I HAD BETTER WORDS, HEHE.
I'VE JUST BEEN SO EMOTIONAL LATELY, IN THE BEST POSSIBLE WAY. I CRIED OVER DARLY A FEW DAYS AGO; WEEPING INTO HIS CHEST WHILE BABBLING ABOUT HOW I LOVE HIM THROUGH TIME AND EACH EXISTANCE I MANIFEST INTO AND HOW I ALWAYS WILL AND HOW HE DESERVES TO BE LOVED SO DEEPLY. WHINING AND WAILING ABOUT HOW I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE TO WORSHIP HIM AND LOVE HIM AND CLING TO HIM BECAUSE IT'D BE SO INCREDIBLY DIFFICULT FOR ANYONE TO ACHIEVE ANYTHING CLOSE TO WHAT I FEEL, SO I MUST GIVE HIM MY EVERYTHING. HOW I CAN ONLY HOPE THAT I CAN TOUCH HIM ACROSS UNIVERSES THE SAME WAY HE HAS TOUCHED ME. I WAS HAVING BORDERLINE RELIGIOUS EXPERIENCES TO HAWAII PT. II, I'LL TELL YOU THAT MUCH. WHITE BALL, ISLE UNTO THYSELF AND TIME MACHINE ARE ALL ON MY PLAYLIST FOR HIM NOW.
I'VE SAID IT MANY TIMES, AND I WILL CONTINUE TO SAY IT FOREVER AND EVER: I LOVE DARLY BOXMAN. I LOVE HIS TROUBLED LAUGH AND HIS BIG BLOODSHOT EYES AND THE WAY HIS MOOD CHANGES ON A DIME. I LOVE THAT OTHERS LOVE THAT I LOVE DARLY, AND I LOVE THAT THEY LISTEN TO ME SPEW WHATEVER INSANE BULLSHITTERY I DO ABOUT HIS LOVELY EXISTANCE AND PERHAPS EVEN HOW DEEPLY IT'S TIED TO MINE. I LOVE YOU IS ONE OF THOSE PHRASES THAT ONE CAN SIMPLY NEVER EXHAUST. I LOVE YOU, DARLY. I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU. FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER, UNTIL I'M REBORN AND EVENTUALLY FIND MY WAY BACK TO YOU ONCE MORE, AS I ALWAYS DO. AND THEN... I WILL LOVE YOU AGAIN.
I DOUBT THISMAKES A LOT OF SENSE. SORRY, EHEH. AS ALWAYS THE TAKEAWAY IS THAT I LOVE MY WIFE A LOT. MIC DROP!