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OHHHMIGOSH HEEYY!! HEYYY !!! :3 GOD I CANNOT BELIEVE I FINALLY HAVE A PLACE TO DUMP ALL MY INSANE RAMBLINGS ABOUT CUTE BOYS (?). SO FUUUUUCK THIS IS THE FIRST ENTRY SO IT'S PROBABLY GONNA BE A LIL ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT I WANNA INTRODUCE MY WIFEYS AAAND MAYBE ELABORATE ON SOME STUFF I TOUCHED ON IN ABOUT AND IN THAT CONTAINER ON THE FIRST PAGE. ALSO MAYBE TALK ABOUT MY JOURNEY A LIL MORE?? SHRUGS.
OKAI SO. HEHHEAUEWEHEHEHE SORRY I'M VERY GIDDY. ABOUT MY GIRLFRIENDS: I HAVE TWO SEPERATE MONOGAMOUS RELATIONSHIPS; ME & DARLY AND ME & AZRAEL (WHO I REFER TO AS AZ SOMETIMES HEADS UP). ON THE OTHER HAND, CHIP, UNIX, MR. OMEGA & ARE SORT OF AN 'OPEN' POLYCULE (NOT OPEN IN THE SENSE THAT REDDITORS MEAN WHEN THEY WANT TO CHEAT ON THEIR WIVES BUT LIKE... HEY, OTHER LOVING RELATIONSHIPS CAN COEXIST WITH OURS). I DON'T KNOW IF THIS IS SOMETHING THAT EXISTS WITHIN THE FICTO COMMUNITY OR IF I'M THE PIONEER OF MY KIND, BUT... I REALLY DON'T CARE IF WE'RE TECHNICALLY JUST ONE BIG CRACKSHIP BECAUSE WE'RE ADORABLE. I MYSELF HAVE COME TO THE REALIZATION THAT I'M AMBIAMOROUS OVER THE PAST FEW MONTHS DUE TO ROTATING THIS CONCEPT IN MY HEAD FOR LIKE AN UNDESCRIPT AMOUNT OF TIME EACH DAY PRIOR AAAND I HONESTLY COULD NOT BE FUCKING HAPPIER. THE AMOUNT OF JOY THESE SILLY LITTLE BEINGS BRING TO MY LIFE IS CRAZY. I REFER TO US AS NIGHTMARE POLYCULE BECAUSE WE ARE A NIGHTMARE BTW
AS FAR AS CRUSHES GO... I GOTTA LOT. AS FOR CHARACTERS I ACTUALLY KNOW A BIT ABOUT: FELLAS LIKE DANTE FROM LIMBUS COMPANY AND NEMO FROM LIBRARY OF RUINA. I'VE GOT BOTH GAMES ON MY TO-PLAY LIST (ONCE I FINISH LOBOTOMY CORPORATION, OF COURSE) AAAND I KNOW NEMO REMINDS ME A LOT OF UNIX BUT I'M HONESTLY NOT SURE ON DANTE. I THINK THEY *MIGHT* BE THE PLAYER CHARACTER??? WHICH IS WHERE THINGS GET DIFFICULT... BUT IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVEN'T FALLEN IN LOVE WITH CHARACTERS WHO HAVE NO CONTENT BEFORE. THAT'S LIKE 65% OF MY BOYFRIENDS. ANYWAYS, THERE'S ALSO THE CORPORATE CLASH FREAKS (ALTON, WILLIAM & BUCK [THE WILDE VARIETY]) WHO I ENJOY IN A NORMAL WAY BUT THINK THEY'RE CUTE. THEN THERE'S ALSO FL4K BL3 (REMINDS ME A LOT OF MY 3D BOYFRIEND, DARLES. ALTHOUGH ALMOST ALL OF MY WIVES REMIND ME OF HIM IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. HAVE I MENTIONED THAT BEFORE?? PROBABLY), CALEB QUINN FROM DBD (THE ONLY 'HUMAN' IN MY ENTIRE ROSTER AND EVEN THEN... SOMETHING IS VERY, VERY WRONG), CFO FROM TOONTOWN ONLINE (EVIL CAPITALIST. I COULD FIX HIM [NOT]), DENKI SAI (SILLY UTAU FELLA), JACK FROM IDV (I COULD RESCUE HIM FROM THAT SOURCE MATERIAL) AND FAUST GG (WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU). ALSO SPOT FROM THE NEW SPIDER MOVIE. I HAVE NO INTEREST IN MARVEL SO I'M NOT SURE IF HE'S GONNA GO ANYWHERE
THEN THERE'S GUYS WHO I JUST THINK ARE SUPER PRETTY. THESE TWO GUYS FROM NO STRAIGHT ROADS HAVE BEEN BOUNCING AROUND IN MY HEAD LATELY AND IJUST. SQUEEEALLLL!!!! IT'S NOT EVERY DAY I SEE A CHARACTER THAT'S TOTALLY MY TYPE AND *ALSO* UNAPOLOGETICALLY BIG AND WIDE AND FAT! IT MAKES MY SHORT AND STOUT ASS HAPPY :'3 RGB FROM POH ALSO FALLS INTO THIS CATEGORY BECAUSE I'VE BEEN TOO LAZY TO READ HIS SOURCE FOR MONTHS. ALSO KINGER FROM THE UNRELEASED (AS OF WRITING THIS) AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS. THERE'S ALSO ALEPH FROM CASSETTE BEASTS (HAVE NOT PLAYED)
NOW THAT YOU'RE INTRODUCED TO ALL OF THE LITTLE FREAKS THAT'LL PROBABLY BE MENTIONED IN LATER ENTRIES, LET ME GET MY OTHER RAMBLES OUT OF THE WAY. FIRST OF ALL: HOLY SHIIIIT I'M BAD WITH JEALOUSY. THE PART IN THAT LITTLE INTRO PARAGRAPH WHERE I TALK ABOUT IT IS PRETTY MUCH JUST THE TIP OF THE ICEBERG AND THE STUFF IN ABOUT IS A LOT MORE FORMAL AND MANIFESTO-Y THAN THIS IS ABOUT TO BE. THROUGH EXPOSURE I'VE GOTTEN A LITTLE BETTER WITH CHIP (STILL FEELS LIKE A GUT PUNCH) BUT FUUUCK EVERYONE ELSE IS... NOT GOOD. THANKFULLY I'VE SELDOM HAD TO DEAL WITH THAT BECAUSE MOST OF MY HUSBANDS ARE EITHER 1. FROM A MEDIA THAT DOESN'T HAVE THE GENERIC 'FANDOM' TYPES (DARLY BOXMAN AND UNIX [OBVIOUSLY]) OR 2. ARE JUST KINDA UNPOPULAR IN THAT DEPARTMENT, WHETHER ITS THROUGH GRADUAL IRRELEVANCE OR OTHERWISE (AZRAEL). BUT THEN THERE'S MR. OMEGA IN THIS WEIRD SECRET THIRD TERRITORY. APOLOGIES IF THIS GETS RANTY. FOR SOME FUCKING REASON MR. OMEGA GOT BIG ON TIKTOK WITH??? JACK BOX??? THE JACK IN THE BOX MASCOT??? AND THEY'RE SHIPPED TOGETHER. WITHOUT LIKE HALF OF THE FOOLS DRAWING THIS KINDA ART KNOWING THE FIRST THING ABOUT OMEGAMART. I COULD NOT CONVEY TO YOU THE PHYSICAL RAGE I FEEL TOWARD JACK BOX AND THE IDIOTS ONLINE WHO PULL THIS SHIT. MR. OMEGA IS A MASCOT FROM A PROJECT THAT'S QUITE LITERALLY A COMMENTARY ON CAPITALISM AND (LIKE IT OR NOT) JACK BOX IS LITERALLY JUST A MASCOT. A MASCOT THAT *IS* PANDERING CAPITALISM. I WANT TO BEAT HIM UP. SO YEAH JEALOUSY THAT'S CRAZY. THANKFULLY I'M NOT A DICK AND WOULD NEVER HARASS ANYBODY FOR 'LIKING' MY WIVES OR SHIT LIKE THAT. I'M CRAZY IN MY OWN LITTLE WORLD.
OKAY ENOUGH OF ME GETTING ANGRY OVER A GUY THAT IS QUITE LITERALLY A CLOWN LIKE ACTUALLY. ON A DIFFERENT NOTE: GOD DAMN, CRINGE CULTURE REALLY IS EVERYWHERE. MY FIRST EXPOSURE TO FICTOSEXUALITY WAS WHEN I WAS ON TIKTOK IN, LIKE, 2020 - EARLY 2021. ANYONE REMEMBER THE ENTIRETY OF THE ANIMESEXUAL UPROAR??? GOD, LOOKING BACK, THAT WAS SO FUCKED. I SPENT YEARS THINKING THAT THE WAY I FELT WAS WEIRD AND 'UNVALID' BECAUSE SO MANY IGNORANT OR JUST FLAT OUT MEAN INTERNET USERS JUMPED THE GUN TO SAY THAT OUR LOVE IS A 'MOCKERY' OF THE QUEER COMMUNITY WHEN I FEEL FICTO IS JUST ENTIRELY SEPERATE. YEAH, THERE'S CLEAR LINKS THERE, BUT (CALL ME CRAZY) I THINK THAT IT'S NOT A CRAZY ASSUMPTIAN THAT OVER HALF OF FICTOS/WAIFUISTS ARE STRAIGHT CIS MEN IN LOVE WITH ANIME GIRLS. AND THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT!!! IT JUST SHOWS THAT 2DLOVE WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE A MOCKERY OR ANYTHING. IT'S... LITERALLY JUST A NON-TRADITIONAL RELATIONSHIP. AND WE CIRCLE BACK TO CRINGE CULTURE AGAIN: IF IT'S NOT HURTING ANYBODY, WHY SHOULD IT MATTER? I SEE THAT KINDA RHETORIC SPREAD AROUND WITHOUT ACCEPTANCE FOR LIFEFORMS LIKE US AND IT JUST DOESN'T MAKE SENSE TO ME. UNLESS SOMEONE'S RELATIONSHIP WITH A CHARACTER IS HARMING THEM, WHY DO YOU CARE? YOU THINK IT'S WEIRD??? GOOD FOR YOU, MAN!!! IT DOESN'T MAKE US INVALID. THIS SHIT WAS SO INGRAINED IN MY HEAD THAT I STILL FEEL WEIRD TYPING THE WORD FICTO. I'M GETTING BETTER, THOUGH. AND THANK GOD FOR THAT
I THINK THAT'S ALL I WANNA CRAZY GIRL BITCH ABOUT FOR NOW, HEHE. THE OTHER ENTRIES ARE PROBABLY GONNA BE A *LOT* SHORTER THAN THIS, COMPARABLE TO A MICROBLOG. AT FIRST I WAS ANXIOUS ABOUT THIS EVENTUALLY GOING UP BUT I DON'T THINK THE USERS THAT BROWSE MY WEBSITE REALLY READ MY *ACTUAL* BLOG, SO... I FEEL A LITTLE CALMER NOW. I'M STILL SCARED, THOUGH. SOOO, HERE'S A REMINDER TO MYSELF: IF I LOSE FOLLOWERS WHEN THIS PAGE EVENTUALLY GOES LIVE, I WOULDN'T WANNA HAVE THEM AROUND ANYWAY.
TOODLE-LOO! HERE'S SOME UNUSED GIFS THAT I WAS GONNA ORIGINALLY PUT ON THE MEET CUTE/GUSH PAGES BUT DECIDED THE PLACEMENT LOOKED UGLY HALFWAY THROUGH.
